Heartbreak

Dear Jessica, 

     Our love will last forever. Forever and ever. I can not believe it has been 4 months since I have seen your face. Do I remember it exactly? Green eyes that look at me like there is nothing else I need to look at. Brown hair with light strands of blonde throughout your hair that glow when the light hits it. You are so beautiful and I wish so bad that I could see you. Could you send a photo of yourself? I have a few but I would enjoy a few more. The four months apart make our 5 years seem like nothing.

 Only a few more weeks until I am home with you. I miss our days at the beach watching the sunset. I also just miss your presence and that feeling of alleviation I get when I am around you. It feels like there is nothing else I need to worry about in the world. Why can’t life just be like you, Jessica? Sometimes it still doesn’t feel real that I am out fighting in a war. I wake up thinking it’s a normal day that I am going to see you and we will spend the day together but then I open my eyes and I see all the wounded soldiers and realize what hell I am a part of here. My leg is doing better so I can finally start walking. 

The commander came to talk to me about my leg and see if I would be able to go back out there but I lied and said I just still feel weak and that I need to go home. I could sense he had the feeling that I just wanted to go home and not be at war anymore. I love you Jessica, please don’t ever forget that. 

Forever yours, 

          -Andrew

Dear Andrew, 

    Our love will last forever. Forever and ever. I am so happy to know that your leg is getting better. It hurts my heart to know that you are in a room with all hurt men and no love and comfort. I am trying very hard to be patient until you come home but it is getting very hard. 

It is very quiet around here. M day consists of waking up and going for a walk around the block and then having my morning coffee. I go to work at the boutique and come home to have dinner and then go to bed. I feel like I live the same day over and over again and nothing will change. I feel so bored and lost at times. But I do not want you to worry about me, because I know you will. I can not wait until I see you. I love you Andrew.

Forever yours,

         -Jessica

Dear Jessica, 

      Our love will last forever. Forever and ever. I miss you so much. I just got bad news that I have to stay for a few more months because my leg is all better. They need more bodies out there because we are just losing more and more everyday. My heart urches that I won’t be able to see you. I can’t even begin to think about how painful this will be. But I know for the country I have to keep working.

What I am about to ask you might seem crazy and out of the blue but I have reasoning. I love you so much. Not a single person makes me feel the way I do when I am around you. You bring so much love and happiness into my life. I can’t go another day without knowing for certain that you are my forever literally. I need to be my other half for the rest of my life. I want my helping hand until I die. 

Jessica, I would like for you to marry me.

When I get back I will have the ring and you can start planning the wedding while I am gone. It will give you something to do while you are bored and having something to bring you excitement. I love you Jessica, please never forget that. 

Forever yours,

     -Andrew

Dear Andrew, 

    This was very unexpected. But I need to be honest with you. I can not marry you. Since you have been away I have lost my love for you. I was lonely at first and the only other person that was left at home that I knew was your best friend, Luke. We have been together since you left and I am so much happier. I did not want to end our relationship over a letter because I wanted to tell you in person but, since you asked me to be your forever this had to happen. You used to mean the world to me but it wasn’t there anymore for me. Luke makes me really happy and I know he feels the same way.  I know you probably hate me now so I don’t feel obliged to respond. But know I am sorry, and that I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. You deserve happiness but I am not going to give you that. I wish you good luck out on the battlefield. 

-Jessica

Dear Jessica, 

      I have never experienced this heartbreak before in my life. I have no respect for you. You treat me like this after all we have been through. If you cared about me at all you would have told me as soon as something happened. Why didn’t you let me know when you lost love for me? Never treat a man let alone a person like this ever again please! Have the best life with my best friend as I am fighting for my life and our country. 

-A